You have come here in pursuit of your deepest urge, in pursuit of that wish, which till now has been silent, silent . . .
I have brought you, that our passions may fuse and merge - in your mind you've already succumbed to me dropped all defences completely succumbed to me - now you are here with me: no second thoughts, you've decided,decided . . .
Past the point of no return - no backward glances:the games we've played till now are at an end . . . Past all thought of "if" or "when" - no use resisting: abandon thought, and let the dream descend . . .
What raging fire shall flood the soul? What rich desire unlocks its door? What sweet seduction lies before us . . .?
Past the point of no return, the final threshold - what warm, unspoken secrets will we learn? Beyond the point of no return . . .
You have brought me to that moment where words run dry, to that moment where speech disappears into silence, silence . . .
I have come here, hardly knowing the reason why . . . In my mind, I've already imagined our bodies entwining defenceless and silent - and now I am here with you: no second thoughts, I've decided, decided . . .
Past the point of no return - no going back now: our passion-play has now, at last, begun . . . Past all thought of right or wrong - one final question: how long should we two wait, before we're one . . .?
When will the blood begin to race the sleeping bud burst into bloom? When will the flames, at last, consume us . . .? Past the point of no return the final threshold - the bridge is crossed, so stand and watch it burn . . . We've passed the point of no return . . .
The summer has begun, it looks to be one of the hardest emotionally that I have yet to face in my young life. The routinee that I'm used too is going to be completely disrupted, I have a summer job about 20-30 minutes away and I might not be going to CWSC because of the need for money and time. I'm going to west for a week some time this summer for a research job, which I think will be amazing. And then theres the situation with Giovanny. For those who don't know about Giovanny, he is a good italian Christian boy, he's a junior at Tech, he's a mechanical engineer and smart. But he lives in Alexandria. . . so thats going to be a difficulty, I'm really missing him right now. I've been sick for the past couple of weeks and lately its gotten worse, I went to the Doc and got antibiotics and they seem to be working fairly well. so I hope I am on the way to a swift recovery. Jennifer is back from Italia and she came with gifts! She had a really good time, got a lot of italian culture and clothes. This summer looks to be very busy but right now its really boring and disorganized. oh well.